Some days you might feel like you’re not enough or that you haven’t done enough. The guilt is real. On the days when you’re feeling like you can’t measure up to the demands of life around you…
But that's the thing with mental illness.
Mental illness doesn't care if you did everything right.
No matter how often I track my moods or watch my diet, a psychotic episode can still spring up on me out of nowhere. I could spend my days relaxing, taking care of myself, barely lifting a finger, and I can trigger the psychosis.
So if you're having a bad day, and you don't know why... it's alright.
May 1st feels like a great time to start up thing blog. I'll be honest... it's been a while since I've run a successful blog. My mental health has been deteriorating over the last few years and I've allowed myself to fall into a pit of self-pity. I've deleted blogs that I've started. I threw away projects that I've funneled time and money into. I've come to a point of helplessness where enough is enough.
So to mark the beginning of borderline personality disorder awareness month, I am starting this blog.